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Energy of ‘love’

“The energy of love is abundant, waiting to be called upon. Mindfulness helps us generate the energy to love and understanding. True love has the power to heal and bring meaning to our life.” Thich Nhat Hanh

Such truth in those words. My happiest moments are when I was loving and loved. As I am finding out, love is the most powerful energy in the world. It is love that helps bring vibrations in our body up and helps propel us in new directions and fresh adventures. Love gives us strength, courage and helps us become strong, more compassionate, and heal us.

When we do not feel love or find that our love is being taken but not given back… we see illness enter our world. Pain and so much more enter our lives that cause depressed feelings, resentment and anger, as well as we tend to shut down. Love brings up vibrations in the body. It has shown me this energy from these vibrations heals and brings joy.

I Corinthians 13:13 came up today. One of my favorite verses in the Bible, and yes, just because I am a witch doesn’t mean I haven’t read the bible, oh, and I did master in religion just an FYI. I love this verse because it speaks to my heart from my heart.

13 If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or clanging cymbal. If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of Spirit’s Secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing. 4 love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boasting of proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice, but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

8 Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge, we become useless. But love will last forever! Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, reveals only part of the whole picture. But when the time of perfection comes, these things will become useless.

11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. Now we see things imperfectly, like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as Spirit nows knows me completely.

13 Three things will last forever–faith, hope, and love–and the greatest of these is love.

The greatest memories in my life were the love I have felt, to be around love, to be loved. No amount of money or materialistic shit makes a hill of beans when there is no love. Love is an energy. It’s not a word, a noun or verb. It’s an amazing energy. It heals, it puts wrongs right; it moves mountains. Love moves us, directs us, helps us grow to move forward on our journey in life. When we lose love, it can destroy countries, families and friendships.

The energy of love feels like you won the lottery, gives you courage, brings peace, and healing. It connects us to our higher self.

I lost my love energies, and I know that I am searching for love, but here is the thing: I will never find it outside of myself. Everything I need is within me. Spirit lives inside of me. I do not have to look to others or outside of myself to find love. I feel right now that my love that I have given has been crumbled up and thrown back in my face. I don’t believe it is on purpose, but comes from their lack of love and compassionate within themself. Love starts first within yourself.

As I look back at my relationship, I see it being one sided, and they did not receive the love I gave or appreciated. In fact, as I look back, I see how it was ignored. That love being destroyed when it was ignored or taken for granted.

As I see this now, I realize this is causing me to suffer, and is hurting me.

It’s hard to move on and stop waiting for this relationship to awaken. No matter how hard I want to make this relationship balanced and work. I can not help others who do not know how to receive love and do not want to know how to give it back.

The human being is the spirit in this human form, loves to give and give back. I give and I want back what I give. It is not natural not to want back what we give. And we should never feel guilty for wanting love back. NO! You can not keep giving and not get anything back. That is impossible and whoever says this is very limited in their thoughts. You need love just as much as you need to love. You are worth their time and respect, and if you are around someone who treats you with no respect or love, GET AWAY FROM THEM!!

But here is the thing: you need to start with yourself first, because you can only love and understand another when you have practiced love and understanding yourself. To love means to be there for yourself! Everyone wants to be embraced by the mindful attention of the one they love, including yourself.

It is time to stand up, love, respect, protect, honor, and strengthen yourself. I have been working on that.

“Your presence is very precious to me and is crucial to my happiness. To hear I am here, I recognize my presence. I offer my presence to you, my beloved one. This is the best gift a lover can make to their beloved one. Including yourself. With mindfulness, you can make your presence more pleasant, more loving , and you can offer that wonderful presence to your beloved one and make happiness for both of you.” Yet, both of you must be on the same vibrational wave. Both need to want to give 100%.

WWYHS

References: No Mud No Lotus Thich Naht Hanh

Just Breathe and become aware

“Breathing in, say in your mind-I know I’m breathing in. Breathing out, say in your mind-I know I’m breathing out. Bringing awareness to our breathing, we stop all the thinking and focus only on our in-breath and out-breath.” Thich Nhat Hanh

Thich Nhat Hanh writes that ‘To become aware and mindful is probably the best thing that I have done for myself. To see the self destruction, I have been creating and stopping it a genuine miracle. We may need some insight that can help us release the tension and calm the body. Becoming aware of your body, you may notice tension and pain. You have allowed tension and strain to accumulate in your body, and that may be the starting place for any number of illnesses. That’s why you’re motivated to release these tensions.”

I’ve proven to myself without a doubt that we must be connected to our bodies and spirit. That when we become stressed out, we find ourselves in pain; we are disconnected from all three. To find a way back to the connection of all three is the only way you will find healing.

I was told by a doctor that I am extremely sensitive to my body, that I can feel most things right away where it may take years for someone else to realize there is a problem. I know that they have chastised me about my sensitivity, but just this week I found out that this sensitivity or awareness has saved my life, probably more times than I realize. And you may think I am over-exaggerating, but just read on.

All my life since contracting Lyme Disease, I have had problems with meat. I usually tried to eat meat, but I always ended up having terrible stomach aches, or having allergies, got strange rashes. At the time I didn’t really put together my symptoms, but as I am writing a book on Chronic Lyme disease, I am discovering some very telling information and now my past symptoms make sense.

As I research deeper into my disease, I can see some correlations on my symptoms. Meats, cheeses, milk, any animal food caused me such awful pain and as I grew older, the worse it became. I think I was up to one a bottle of tums a week, and we are talking about the Sam’s size bottle.

It’s a fact that we all want to be a part of this world, to be accepted by our family and friends, to be a part of society. Vegans’ were tree hugging all against animals products. The horror of PETA and the destruction they have caused , has caused the Vegan to be looked down as enemy of the State, as you could say. I am vegan, but I cook meat for my partner. I am not against meat, it’s just I can’t touch it and for a good reason. Read on…

I felt better when all I ate was a plant-based diet, but was made fun of or thought weird. When I cooked meat, I destroyed it when I cooked it. I know now that this was because deep down my body was trying to get my attention, telling myself that there was something wrong, and I needed to become aware of the situation.

I found a wonderful naturalist about three years ago, that told me to stop eating meat when told him I had Lyme Disease. Three years ago, I read an article about how people with lyme could not digest meat. I wasn’t able to find much more than a brief article and just put my research on the back burner for a while.

Yesterday, while finding more info on Lyme Disease, I went on the search for more information about the article about not being able to eat meats or any animal products. I found several articles, two being from two different institutions. The CDC and the MAYO Clinic. It was shocking to say the lease, but not surprising that this information would just kind of slip out there with little fanfare.

As I had recently found out, the CDC and FDA do not want people to know about Lyme Disease that affects over 300,00 people, that we know of. We as a people who used to pay through our taxes, the CDC and FDA, to work for our protection and betterment of life. Have now found evidence that the pharmaceuticals companies pay the CDC and FDA, so we are in big shit with these two companies. There is a bias going on and we are in enormous danger. Do we have someone looking out for our best interest now? Don’t believe me? Start looking into this, just saying.

So onward, as I have gone down the rabbit hole, I discovered that yes, there is a condition linked from Lyme Disease that causes a meat allergy. It is called Alpha-gal syndrome. The bite from a Lyme infected insect transmits a sugar molecule called alpha-gal into the person’s body. In some people, this triggers an immune system reaction that later produces mild to severe allergic reactions to red meat, such as beef, pork, lamb, chicken or fish or other mammal products. Ah ha, the light bulb comes on.

Before I went to a vegan diet, I was aware of that. I was dealing with shingle type rashes, severe stomach aches, trouble breathing, and other allergy symptoms. I ended up in the hospital several times, had a battery of test and ultrasound and no-one could tell me what was happening. A bottle of tums and a large doctor bill were what I ended up with. It was more like a prescription of antacid, but you get my reference.

Of course, most doctors do not know about Lyme disease and so it is hard to find an open-minded think out of the box doctor.

Researchers now believe that some people who have frequent, unexplained anaphylactic reactions-and who test negative for other food allergies-may be affected by alpha-gal syndrome. There is no treatment other than avoiding all meat and animal products. My book goes into this research more in-depth.

It all comes down to this. If I had not been reading the signs and symptoms my body was giving me, I could have very well had a severe reaction to meat or animal products and ended up not surviving an allergic reaction.

We must, for our own good, wake up, and become aware of the way we communicate with our bodies. As I was telling my partner about the things I had discovered, the reality of what could have possibly happened to me hit us. I am lucky that I am so sensitive and that I take the time to breathe, be mindful, and look into what is happening inside of me. To wait or go outside of the self to others could very well have caused my demise.

You do have the power to heal and you have control of your destiny. The first step is to stop, breath in, and breath out. To listen, to become aware, to trust in yourself and fight for you! All that you look for is inside of you.

“Breathing in, I’m aware of my body. Breathing out, I’m aware of my body.” Thich Nhat Hanh

WWYHS

References: http://www.mayoclinic.org search: Alpha-gal syndrome

The simple act of touch

Why is it we have become almost fearful of the very word… to touch? Why have we forgotten that the simple act of touch can move mountains, heal a brokenness or even heal the body in extraordinary ways? Soft caresses can soothe a crying baby or help a painful area. A touch can bring one back from a panic attack or a healthy hand shake can make you feel amazing.

Did you know a handshake can tell you a lot about a person’s health? Stanley Rosenberg explains it this way:

“A handshake gives us a good indication of the state of another person’s autonomic nervous system. An overly tight body usually results from a chronic state of activity in the spinal sympathetic chain, where the entire muscular system is continually prepared to fight or flee. Such a person characteristically has an overly forceful handshake, squeezing harder than necessary. The opposite is true for someone lacking muscular tonus— usually a sign or overactivity in the dorsal vagal circuit. This person generally has a limp, damp, and sometimes cold handshake. If our handshake is just right, it is the ventral branch of the vagus nerve that is predominant. We may have some tension in individual muscles, but the tense muscles relax very quickly, and a massage therapist will notice that our body also feels right.”

I have been working on becoming more aware as well as mindful of these conditions in myself as well as in others. I have found that to help heal others; we help heal ourselves.

It is a shame that we as a society are made to fear and most definitely feel like we are sinning if we touch ourselves. You go to a doctor to be examined and what do they do… they touch you; they press on places you have pain in. Why are we not allowed to do the same for ourselves? Why are we not taught the most basic knowledge of what these symptoms could possibly mean? How to heal ourselves?

Lightly stroking the face which activates the cranial nerve V, as well as CN VII, supplies the muscles of the face with nerves. These nerves help to relax or tighten the muscles in the face. “Lightly stroking of the face can often times calm us and help us out of a state of stress.” Stanley Rosenberg quotes.

I have witnessed this firsthand. It does work, but you have to be aware and watch for the signs. If you don’t, it will take longer to get yourself calmed down.

I watch for triggers which cause me flare-ups with my Lyme Disease. So should you! Read up and educate yourself on what you suffer from. Notice how you are feeling, what you are eating, what you are doing in your life.

The lighter the touch, the better. It is almost like you are tickling someone or yourself. I’m not able to stand deep tissue massages, not even regular massages. I feel like my skin is being torn off. The lighter the touch, the better, and I am just getting where I can stand that. There was a time when even being under too many blankets hurt me.

The softer the touch has shown to promote deep relaxation and sensory stimulation for those who enjoy a very soft touch.

With my Lyme Disease I can’t handle the sensory overload from strong contact, it causes a flight or flight response in me. To have someone try to hug me or rub my shoulders like trying to warm you up sends me into panic and anxiety attacks. Lyme causes my nervous system to be over reactive. Flare-ups can cause many difficult symptoms that I have to deal with all at once.

As I look back on my past, I can see a lot of times I suffered greatly with flare-ups and did not know what was happening. Too many times, they punished me for my reactions to the pain and anxiety I was dealing with. This caused me to stay in a fight, flight, or freeze response. I got to where I couldn’t stand to be touched, let alone touch my skin.

How many people suffer from this affliction?

I recently discovered that when I wake up due to pain or a panic attack, I can gently and softly massage my neck, shoulders, face, jaw or even my feet and find instant relief from my pain and anxiety. I also use mindful breathing and vagus stimulating exercises. But, you must first become aware of that is happening to you.

Forewords by Stephen Porges PhD tells his story of how Stanley Rosenberg literally helped him with back problems he had for years. Stanly instructed him to go on his hands and knees and relax and keep the spine relatively level. Then, with the fingers of both hands going in opposing directions, he moved the tissue over the vertebrae that had slipped. As he did this, the vertebrae immediately and effortlessly slipped into position. For fifteen years Stephen Porges PhD has used a modification of this procedure to remain pain free.

“Stephen understood immediately what he was doing. The physical manipulation, which gently moved the upper levels of tissue, signaled the body to relax. The relaxation reorganized the neural muscular regulation that supported the spine, allowing the vertebrae to gently fall into place. Stanley was transmitting signals of safety to the neuromuscular system that enabled the system to immediately shift from the defensive state of contraction, in which it attempted to protect the vulnerability of the lower spine.”

I am sure that we can use this method on many ailments in our society. As Stanely Rosenberg wrote, The heads of Hydra: Common problems related to Cranial-nerve dysfunction things like;

Chronic Physical tensions:

Tense/hard muscles, sore neck and shoulders, migraines, back pain, tightly clenched teeth, grinding teeth at night, eye or facial tensions, cold feet or hands, unwarranted sweating, tenseness after exertion, dizziness, lump in the throat, nervousness, arthritis.

Emotional issues:

Irritability, anger, feeling down, feeling hopelessness, lack of energy, tendency to cry easily. General anxiety, feeling heaviness, extended periods of depression, fearfulness, nightmares…

Heart and lung issues: Visceral-organ dysfunction: Poor Digestion, constipation, irritation of the large intestine, diarrhea, stomach problems, ulcer, heartburn… Immune-System Problems, Behavioral problems, interpersonal relationships, Mental issues, Other problems… the list goes on.

I would highly recommend the book Accessing the Healing Power of the Vagus Nerve by Stanley Rosenberg. I go back to this book often.

Since, my medical injury and complications from Chronic Lyme Disease which I deal with Lyme Disease for over 37 years now. My body has no way of dealing with life in a general way. Taking care of myself is something I have to be aware of. I have to fight at times to take time to help myself a lot. I stay away from doctors who do not know of my disease.

In fact, most of us in the world right now deal with an extraordinary amount of stress. The lack of organic foods, clean water, and the pharmaceuticals we are exposing ourselves to has made us one of the sickest generations in history. We as a society have fried the autonomic nervous system and our vagus nerve is a mess and until we can heal the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous system, we will continue to see illness rise.

” The sympathetic division is activated in states of stress, and helps to mobilize the body to fight or flee or freeze, if need be.”

And I could go on but I will stop here. It all comes down to recognize when we need a soft touch to help stop the fight-or-flight responses and help the body become grounded, aware, and mindful. To breathe mindfully, to walk mindful, to be mindful of our suffering and compassionate towards others’ suffering. We do have ways to help correct those ailments we find ourselves suffering from.

As I find my way back to the ‘old ways’, the truth becomes more clear. The medicine of today is not for the sake of healing but for the way to sick care. The folk medicine, herbalism, the organic way is our true salvation. To touch, be kind and gentle is a true miracle everyone has looked for. Our great skilled healers from the past had all the answers and we are being called to go back to the “old ways”. It is not an easy road to go, but it is worth the wonders you find on your way to self-discovery.

The flower is aware of the fact that it contains everything within it, the whole cosmos, and it does not try to become something else. It is the same for you. You have Spirit within you, so you do not have to look for Spirit.” Thich Nhat Hanh

Insight into self love and Romance?

Romance? What is truly Romance or love? To me, and these are all my feelings and thoughts.

To have a soul connection, to have many things in common, to kiss and feel the earth shift, to keep kissing until you are breathless. It’s important to see and hear the person you’re with. To always have a hand or a shoulder that touches. A knowing smile only you two share. It is important to feed off one another’s thoughts and feelings. To be seen and see one another, to be heard and to hear one another. It is important to encourage one another to look into themselves. To be the best and see the best in themselves.

I cut myself off from such open contact when I was medically injured. Or course, the medical injury was the last straw as I say. I have only had a few people I have allowed into my life. And I can say I have yet to really find that deep connection with someone, NOW do not get me wrong, I have had deep loves and have felt the earth move. But it didn’t last, the magic that was there at the time, but seemed to fade and slip away. The relationship was more of a convenience, a place to hide from the suffering. It was a distraction from the insight or the time one should have taken to look deeply into their suffering. A true soul connection should have been one where you had that support and the strength from another to help you learn. To become strong and mindful in the present day. To face your fears and suffering.

My question to myself is did I let love or what I thought was love, to leave, or was it just not the right person for me? There are different stages in a relationship, there is the excitement of the meeting, the getting to know you (yet there are those relationships where you really don’t get allowed into that person’s life and there is a deep disconnect in the relationship). Of course, if you are a mess and broken as Fudge, then you really have some tall trust issues to begin with. You can not come from a broken place and hope to have a connection that will not get messed up.

Where I came from in life was a place of pain and great suffering. I had parents that were truly not parent material. They should have stayed kid-less and just enjoyed life. Definitely should have gotten help with their issues and triggers in life. Because they never healed the suffering they were experiencing, they reflected that off on me and my siblings.

There should be a course in high school, called how to heal the deep suffering and learn how to love yourself. Another course would be mindful breathing and walking. The very fundamentals are not being taught in our schools.

As I look back at my relationships, I see a pattern of trying to be seen and heard. To find someone who could fill the hole that was missing in me. My abuse was being unseen, unheard and ignored, and when I wasn’t being ignored I was being ridiculed and punished for BS things. To be beaten for anything is a crime and should be punishable! There will never be a right time to hit anyone, especially a child. And if you think that your parents beating you until you had no pride, no love for yourself, taught you how to respect your elders, well you need to go get help ASAP! They abused you.

My mom and dad were all about the belt, the switch, anything in hand, to belittle, control with fear and cause suffering, and I must confess I thought it was right, but since finding help have changed my mind and fought with my parents about ever hitting my children. It broke my spirit to have ever paddled my kids and make them feel bad about themselves. I hated my parents for what they did, and I can see where my kids would feel the same about me. There is no reason in this world to cause suffering! NONE!

As I have been working extremely hard on helping myself to heal the triggers and deep hurts and sufferings, I have been trying to share my experiences so I can help my own children and the world. To become mindful and present, to see what is really going on deeply in myself, that is how we heal the world. We have to forgive ourselves if we want to heal our suffering.

….On the long, rough road, both sun and moon will shine, lighting my way. Thich Nhat Hanh

As I have been traveling through my pain and suffering, I have had to shut down my life to others and find my truth. I had to let go of relationships that were not helping me with my healing, and find that little girl that was unseen and unheard. To be ignored is probably the greatest pain anyone can go through. To be unseen and unheard to be the cruelest thing you could ever do to yourself or to anyone else.

If you do not love yourself, how can you love anyone else?

I closed myself off to emotions of love, romance, or sharing my life with anyone. Not because I wanted to, but because I had to! The emotions and the very touch of someone else were just too much for me to bear. But then I realized as I was forgetting the emotions, the touches, moving as one with someone else. I was losing happiness and causing that second arrow or suffering to hit us. How sad to stop experiencing pleasure, the freedom to live mindfully, to sigh from the happiness that life can bring us. To enjoy my own thoughts, no guilt, to dream of soft endearing whispers, to laugh deeply, look deeply, to be deeply in another life. Sharing secrets and ambitions is what it’s about. To have someone who knows you and you know them. To help one another on their journeys.

A true connection is not the marriage license, the ring, to own a person, to make them feel as though they are owned or owe you. You must be in this person’s life even when all you do is ghost around one another, is crazy and harmful. Pretending there is something there that is not. Sacrificing your dreams and feelings and thoughts. NO, You should be heard and seen, to be one with one another, yet have your own thoughts and desires fulfilled. To have that deep connection and compassion.

Since I have been practicing insight, I have been recognizing the tension in my body or the triggers that are caused by the lack I feel in my life. Everyone of us has insight, though we do not always listen to it. Our feelings of lack, jealousy, anger, depression can lead us to clarity. I was taught to use medicines, alcohol, to look for things to keep me busy, or like most, to use social media to ignore the signs that something deep down needs my attention. How do we change that thought that we need to hide from our emotions and suffering?

To meditate is to be aware of what is going on – in our bodies, or feelings, our mind, and in the world. When we settle in the present moment, we can see the beauty and wonder right before our eyes. Thich Nhat Hanh.

I also found that I had withdrawn from intimacy from physical contact. The reason… because of the pain and the use of contact to control others. I have not found yet a person not suffering, or that doesn’t use guilt or your love to control. There are so many hurt and suffering people out there and they do not know how to love. Most do not know what romance is. They only come from a place of lack and limitation. They come from a place of suffering. This world is all about using fear controlling the masses. To use distraction to keep you from seeing and hearing what is deep inside you trying to communicate with you.

We must love and show romance to yourself first.

Thich Nhat Hanh says it so well in his book No Mud No lotus. “The essence of our practice can be described as transforming suffering into happiness. It’s not a complicated practice, but it requires us to cultivate mindfulness, concentration, and insight. It requires, first of all, that we come home to ourselves, that we make peace with our suffering, treating it tenderly, and looking deeply at the roots of our pain. It requires that we let go of useless, unnecessary sufferings, release the second arrow, and take a closer look at our idea of happiness. Finally, it requires that we nourish happiness daily, with acknowledgement, understanding, and compassion for ourselves and for those around us. With each breath, we ease suffering and generate joy. With each step, the flower of insight blooms.

The insight I have had has helped me to heal the brokenness that I once was. To heal the acts I have had to live with and through, and help me have a deeper understanding of those around me. To have compassion towards myself has helped me to understand the hurt caused by those around me. Do we stay in that hurt and suffering? NO, we must move away, but with tenderness and compassion.

Your body needs you, your perception needs you, your feelings need you. Your suffering needs you to acknowledge it. Thich Nhat Hanh

There was so much brokenness I have had to look deeply at with insight, tenderness and compassion. I have had to see and hear those places I hid and turned my back on. It’s not fun, but when you uncover them and tenderly exhume and care for them, it is amazing how much you change that suffering to compassion and lessen your pain, anxiety, anger and depression.

Will there ever be anyone in my life that will have the same wants and desires to help the world change by showing them how to look deeply and have insight or share compassion for others who are suffering by healing their own suffering? Spirit knows I have hope!

WWYHS

A wary warning about social media and mainstream media.

Russell Brand said it the best yesterday on his: Reacts to Will Smith Slap video. Is it okay to slap someone on mainstream media? It was a reaction that caused quite an uproar in the who is for Will and who is for Chris debate. Again, are we seeing another way to cause us to divide and jump on the division train?

As Russell said it, the Brokenness of the our sociaty is starting to show wear and tear. The world is falling apart and we are falling apart with it. It is showing that the world can not keep up with all that is going on and people are starting to see that in the little things going on. Even in a oscar show. Why the hell are we having oscars anyways? It is the unreality of this narative of this world right now. To have people we like yelling and hitting on one another in the way they are, it has many awaking, and those who try and control us, can not keep us in the darkness of what is happening around us. The distractions are not working anymore.

I must confess I have been sucked up in the MSM as well as Social media, looking to find some sense in this twilight movie we find ourselves. There is no truth but what you find in your heart.

So I got away from facebook, twitter, and went to truth social. I was told it was a platform where we all, no matter your concerns, we could have an equal voice and be able to talk about the brokenness of our world. There are many who are very triggered by this new platform. I having been on there for over a month I can understand why. Truth social is just as controlling as the other social media platforms. I know I will have someone get triggered off this and come at me like Will Smith did to Chris Rock, but come on, man. There is something not cool going on and we need to talk about it. It seems all anyone does anymore is attack and leave people hurt instead of having open conversations. We have become a world of attackers or victims. SAD!!

I am neither, and I got rid of truth social. And I feel better for it. For me with 6.5k followers, I got angry people coming onto my post and telling me I was not concentrating on what I should share on this platform. I made the mistake of not staying with the scripted of ripping up the leftest <— BS name, and sticking with fear mongering all. It has become popular to trash everyone!

Trump has become a Jesus christ on this platform, which has me sick at heart. NO ONE IS JESUS!!! But Jesus himself and any who would believe in this should run as far away from this occult as they can! AND no, I am not a Bible thumper. I am a Witch and yet I believe in what the story of Jesus means to me. And no, I will not go into that here. Oh, and if you feel the trigger to go after me and my opinion, how about you don’t and go find something better to do with your life? Or better yet, start your own blog and share your deep dark secrets and feelings.

Trump is a man just like the rest of us. He is here to make mistakes and learn, just like the rest of us wonderful souls. I am not against nor for Trump. I am a wait and see what is going to come about and make the best decision when the time comes up. There is no savior coming. in fact, Jesus told us to stop being lazy and save our own self. How sad that so many are waiting to be saved when in fact you were already saved and you need to get off your lazy arse!! We have become mean and non-compassionate and we have become victims or attackers.

As I tried to share my thoughts and concerns, I hoped that truth social was truly a place to have open conversations. It is not. As I had shared other things other than the fearing and the mad run to trash all that may or may not be happening, I was told that I need to keep the content to the narrative of Will Smithing the other side.

As the days went by, I got to seeing truth social as another place to spread fear and discord. It was disheartening, and I found that wanting to be a part of those who were seeing what I saw, that I would have a feeling of belonging. But that was not the case. I felt uncomfortable and felt like I had entered a cult of sorts, and I was very uncomfortable.

Before I could react, though, I was called out by family about the post I had shared, and I can say they are very triggered and very controlling. It made me feal fearful of them, to be brought to their justice and threatened.

I apologized for the things I had shared and I feel that they, my accusers, took what I had posted out of context, which seems to be the norm now. Not that I meant to be offensive or hurtful. It was the way I felt about a situation I am witnessing, and no; I am not bashing no one, but am concerned about how things are being handled in that situation.

Yet, those who I triggered made it a personal attack upon themselves. Those who attacked me are not comfortable with their own choices, so they went after me. It has become normal to attack first and then seek justice. The jury and Judge syndrome! Family against family Friend against friend. It is easier to not have honest open conversations and to shut down and cause pain to all involved. What happen to conversation?

Truth social is heading down the same ideology as the other social networks and that, to me, is a very dangerous slippery slope! I have since then removed all social media from my phone and computers. Not because of those who bully and hurt others because of their of insecurities, but because I did not like the controlling from others who think they can tell me what I can believe or share. There is a lot of miss information and I do not want to share hurtful thoughts or feeling, especially in a world full of triggered hurt people.

Our world is broken as F%$# and we need to wake up and stop distracting ourselves from what is truly going on. We have people who are manipulating and controlling us and we need to wake up FAST! It is sad that so many are walking around being distracted and not seeing that we are in big, big trouble. There is a rumor that those who are destroying the very moral fiber of our world want to shut down the internet… maybe that isn’t such a bad thing. To have a mass awakening when all come out from under their phones and computers and look at what is really going on. To have to come face to face with people again and learn how to communicate as we should.

I can say after my experience with all the social media platforms out there, I am very proud of myself for the mistakes I have made and what I have found out from living those mistakes. And I have been awakened to see that we all have become way to trigger by our lack of conviction and belief in our decisions we have chosen and need to stop blaming others for doubts in ourselves.

I will leave you with this last thought, From Thich Nhat Hanh: The first Noble Truth.

“The Buddah (spirit) told us to recognize the First Noble Truth, the truth of suffering, and to look deeply in order to discover the Second Noble Truth, the cause of suffering. That is the only way the Fourth Noble Truth, the path to transform suffering into happiness, can reveal itself. So we have to emphasize the role of suffering. If we are so afraid of suffering, we have no chance.”

To me, all MSM and all social media have become a way to distract and cause fear and confusion, and now it is causing division. Of course, I have become more aware of the people around me and watching their reactions. I see the discord and disconnect from them, their insecurities and doubts haunting them more and more. I see them attacking and walking around confused and disorientated. Losing physical conversation and time together has caused an energy loss and connection.

May we find our way back to a present day of mindfulness and compassion!

Walking, Breathing Mindfully

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.” (Marilyn Monroe)

I am back! It’s been an eternal moment indeed. So much to share and tell you about. Ohh, go get you some tea and a couple of biscuits.

I have been off on a sabbatical of sorts, learning to be mindful of all I do. I have been suffering to be sure. As I go deeper into my truth of who I am and want to be, well, I have lost friends and family.

Of course, the great reset in our world is happening as I write this.

The world is finding out that they have been deceived, which has many bothered, and that is putting it mildly, and that has put a strain on very fragile relationships. Our world has been on the verge of a total meltdown. Many people are waking to the fact that our medical, government and well a whole hell of a lot we once thought was truth, well it is all BS!

As the government has become a dictor instead of working for the people, we are now in a struggle to get our very spirit given rights back.

I will not go into the sematic’s of what is happening. I am sure when Spirit finds you are ready for the truth, it will show you the truth. The quote -> you can lead a horse to water, but you can not make him drink, comes into play here. “You can show someone something that will benefit him, but you can’t force him to accept it. People, like horses, will do as they will.”

The sad thing is that those around me have removed me from their life because I cause a feeling of confusion and discomfort. I bring up triggers in themselves that they wish to keep hidden and not look deeply into it. Which is fine, but it hurts.

The loss because we can not have the uncomfortable conversations, is very saddening. Although it has helped me to become stronger and more compassionate. As I walk with Spirit and myself, I find that I have compassion and understanding for those who run from one thing to another, trying to stay distracted from the very things that make them uncomfortable.

Dis ease causes Disease there is only so much running, and distractions one can choose until the body, the mind and the spirit cause so much suffering that you either medicate the problem or you stop and look deeply into the root causes of your suffering.

It was very profound to find that I was super lazy when it came to looking deeply into myself. You can run from one thing to another. It is easy to distract yourself, yet I always felt like I wasn’t good enough that I lacked something. No amount of doing for others, or trying to medicate, even with herbs and supplements, could take away that feeling of loss, the hollowness in the heart. To agree with others just so you could be around them, the fear that if you thought differently, you would be exposed and seen. Ughh, I couldn’t stand the lie!

It was a raw feeling to come out and become myself, to be uncomfortable and to state my opinions. To live my truth and to walk in true faith> it is a bitch to break the cycle of trying to appease the masses. Yet, here is the reward: once you break from the matrix of conformity and compliance, you become a warrior for others. They see the strength and the power you inherit. Oh, at first they resent you and become angry at you, but as they watch, they see a mustard size seed of what they once were.

We become the teachers, the mentors, the healers, and we show the way by walking in our own ways, to live truthfully to thy self.

Return to Wisdom

“The practices of mindful walking, mindful sitting, and mindful breathing are our foundation. With our mindful breath and mindful steps, we can produce the energy of mindfulness and return to the awakened wisdom lying in each cell of our body. That energy will embrace us and heal us.” (thich nhat hahn)

For years, I have had trouble sleeping at night. I have waited until I am on the verge of pure exhaustion. Nothing I do helps. I meditate, I took herbs I have tried deep breathing exercises. When I say everything!… I mean everything. So the other night, I stopped the running, the worrying the self medicating. I got mindful! I took a mindful breath and calmed myself. Stopped judging and kicking my ass. Laying there quietly and listen to the dark.

And then asked myself why I hated the night. For as long as I can remember, I have always hated the night. And as I laid there in the dark, all the memories I have run from distracted me from came rushing in. NOT A GOOD FEELING!! Memories from when I was a little girl till now, all coming through like a silent movie.

It doesn’t matter to tell you about them, they wouldn’t mean anything to you. Yet, those memories helped me to become mindful of my suffering. To find compassion for myself. When we go deep and look at the pain and suffering, we can give love to those places that are hurt, those places not healed.

As a parent, I have had my children sit down and start to cry. It seemed like no reason to me. But I would stop what I was doing and sit with them. I held their hand or hugged them to me. I allowed them to work through their pain and held them, letting them know I was there for them. I took the time to be there. We must do the same for ourselves.

Being there for myself, loving myself, caring for myself, helped to bring awareness to my painful memories, and I loved the person I was at that time. I sat there with her and we faced the hurts and the suffering together.

We don’t know how to do this. They taught us to go on and ignore the suffering. They taught me to push through, to push it all down and to ignore the self. To ignore a person is the greatest sin! To ignore a person we profess to love is a Sin! When we ignore the person we say we love, we send the message that we do not care nor love them. How can you love another when you love not even yourself?

“One day you will ask me which is more important? My life or yours? I will say mine and you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.” (Khalil Gibran)

I am you, and you are me. We are all connected! It is just we forgot to acknowledge our own suffering so we could find compassion for others.

To become mindful is to become compassionate! To walk, breathe mindfully, we become alive. The mind and spirit become one. There is no other way around this. To become aware of the present moment is life! To look deeply into those places you have run from is to become mindful, which is to become alive.

I faced my suffering and came out with greater love.

These past couple of months I have suffered yet came out on the other side more alive. The world is lazy and I am free of the conformities. I am learning not to fear the deep dark places where I have hidden pain and suffering. I am learning to stop, listen, and look.

I look forward to those uncomfortable talks we all will have one day. To help one another to face those sufferings we have hidden deep within.

What is happening in the world needed to happen and when we get to the other side of this, there will be many who will find they are more alive, more compassionate and more mindful. Suffering will have a voice and care.

That is what I have been doing these past few months. I have become mindful!

Love and light! OM. Witchyanwise.

The red-headed Witch of Phantom Canyon

This is the story of the Red-headed Witch of Phantom Canyon, haven’t heard of her? Well then, you’re in for a treat! Sit back and let me tell you the story! There are many stories of the Red-headed witch. This is just one of the many!

It was a beautiful day for a drive. Or beautiful red-head witch thought as they drove up the winding road of Phantom Canyon. A beautiful little canyon up above the town of Penrose, Colorado.

The canyon is full of wildlife, a babbling clear stream and so many yellow and orange flowers. A Mountain road switching back and forth as it follows the cut of the stream. The canyon walls so high that you could only see the light blue sky above.

It had Carol, and that was her name, feeling like she drove into a magical forest, and she thought it was perfect because there was no phone service here.

Carol was a witch, a tall, beautifully red headed witch. She was also an elemental witch. She worked with herbs and the elements of the earth, the energies of the earth. A healer.

As Carol and her partner traveled and followed the curves of the mountain road, Carol could see herself running along the stream. Dipping her feet in the cold water and enjoying the scent of the pines, to feel the breath of mother nature in her hair.

After some time on the road, the pair found a nice, open place to pull the Black Nissan over. It was picture perfect. There was a cliff where you could see the stream down below, and a meadow that ran to meet the forest, like two long-lost lovers. Wild flowers and blooming cactus covered the walls of the cliff.

It was the perfect place to have a light lunch and then go hunt up some white quartz. Carol loved to collect stones, pine cones, wild mountains sage and herbs.

As she and her partner finish up with Lunch they gather their bags for gathering their treasures and start out towards the cliff, which had a nice little game trail which lead to the stream and the meadow below. Carol was so excited about the hike.

But something told her to stop. She puts out her arm and stopped her partner. He looked at her, puzzled. She put her fingers to her lips and told him to listen with her other hand.

Carol had this sick feeling like doom and negativity were coming their way. She motioned for her partner to follow her behind an outcrop of large garnet boulders. He followed her, still with a puzzled look on his face. But he knew that this wonderful woman has magical. And she was reading the energies on the wind currents. The earth and spirit talked to her, and he had seen this many times.

He can’t feel it, but he can read her and she is showing him that there is danger coming their way.

Carol and her partner make it to the boulders just as a large van comes around one of the many bends of the mountain road. It was silver with a messed up front bumper and one of the back window broken out and replaced with some partical board. It slowed down as it came up on their black Nissan.

Carol put out the intention that the silver van keep going, the feeling of anger and destruction reaching out and making her feel fear. But the intention was ignored, and the van pulled over on the opposite side of the road from their car.

Carol closed her eyes and summoned the spirits of earth to help her use the elements of the earth. It is said that she could feel the power of the spirits surround her. Earth, Fire, Wind, Water and spirit all surrounding her that day. Her body feeling the energies rush in, and she took on a white light gleam.

Her Partner watched as she breathed in deeply. He knew she was gathering her powers.

Carol and her Partner watched as two men in their thirties got out of the van and crossed over to Carol’s car. They looked in the windows and tried the doors. Of course, they were locked, because she and her partner were on their way to the meadow down below.

The two men looked around and walked towards the game trail. Carol knew she needed to do something. She didn’t want these men to know that there were two of them. It would be better to take them by surprise if anything was to go down.

So Carol used the wind to throw her voice to a different outcrop of boulders just behind the two men. ” Can I help you? What do you want?’

This startled the two men, and they turned around to face the voice. One guy recovered quickly and yelled out, ” hey, come out and play.”

Carol used the wind to move her voice to another place behind some trees that were across the road. “Nope, you both need to move on and leave me alone! You need to move on!”

The two men laughed and walked towards the voice by the trees. Carol summoned up the wind energy into her hands and with a wave of her hand, she directed a blast of wind towards one man. The gust of wind hit the man in the back and sent him stumbling, like he had tripped over a rock. His buddy looked at him, puzzled, and looked at the ground.

The guy turned towards the gust of wind.

Carol could feel his ugliness, and she was tired of playing with these two. She would not allow these two to cause her to feel afraid.

She hollered out by the trees again, ” leave and you and your friend will not get hurt!”

Now here is the thing, Carol and her partner always carry a weapon, with the world like it is , and being in the mountains, you always protect yourself. But she would much rather use elemental magic than to use violence.

The other man left his buddy and walked towards the rock where she and her partner were hiding. So Carol summoned more wind, rocks and dirt this time.

” You need to move on. This is moronic.” She called out!

This time, her voice coming from the rock where she was hid.

She looked at her partner and whispered to him to move closer to the cliff but stay behind the boulder. Her Partner agreed and knew she would let him help her if things got out of hand.

She gathered more earth and rocks, with a wave of her hand, she flung them towards the two men. Both were hit hard by the gust of wind and pelted by the rocks. It stung them both, and pushed them backwards a couple of feet, and they looked up in surprise, holding their chest where the rocks and earth had hit.

Carol summoned more wind and rocks and created a dust devil and pushed it towards them, the mini tornado enveloping them.

While the men were distracted, Carol whispered to her partner to sneak over to the car and get ready to leave.

Now she stepped out from behind the boulders, armed with her magic. She made the land shimmer behind her so you could not see the cliff behind her. The shimmer made a mirage that looked like the ground was flat.

One of the two men finally cleared his eyes of the dirt and debris, saw his chance and took off running towards her. The other guy was still too stunned and blinded to react yet and stood there looking around.

The guy advanced on Carol and just as he went to reach her; she dashed behind the boulder, causing this guy to run through the shimmer and over the cliff. And this cliff, let me tell you, was very steep and full of trees, rocks and cactus.

The guy went over the edge and bounced all the way down the rocks, through the trees and hit a couple of cactus as he journeyed down the mountain’s side.

His buddy gained some mental awareness and ran over to see what had happened. Carol, in the meantime, glimmered herself to look like the countryside and snuck to the car.

She and her partner took off toward the town of Pinon. Once there, they called the sheriff and The Department of Wild Life.

The man who tumbled down the mountain didn’t fare well. He had many bumps and bruises, a broken leg and a couple of broken ribs.

They arrested them both, as you can imagine, one taken to the hospital, the other to jail.

It was found out later that both men had been harassing couples in the canyon for sometime and could get away with it because there was no cell service. But see, they didn’t realize Karma comes around and a beautiful witch was there to take them down that day.

So when you take a drive through Phantom Canyon, remember the red-headed witch that took out the evil of two nasty men.

Written by Witchyanwise stories

In the Darkness

I can hear her, she calls to me from the Darkness.

I can see her as she sits in the Darkness,

I can feel her loneliness in the Darkness.

I can feel her heart breaking in the Darkness.

I can hear her screams of pain in the Darkness.

Yet no matter how hard I run, I can not reach her in the Darkness.

I call to her, and yet I can not find her in the Darkness.

I can feel the fear, anxiety and panic that has her overwhelmed in the Darkness.

The Darkness is deep and vast; it consumes and devours faith, hope, and Love.

I can hear her cries and I can feel her fear.

I am at my wits’ end! Where can she be?

I need to get to her but when I think I am close; the Darkness consumes my progress once more!

I am desperate to find her in the Darkness! She cries out my name, I can hear her from the Darkness. Is this just a Game??

My progress is like a long hallway and the floor moves in the opposite direction.

I can hear her, I can sense her, I can feel her so near.

I am desperate I can not handle being away from her; I need to find her, I can take no more.

I wake up lonely, living in a void of despair, I am trapped in the Darkness and I am so scared.

I can’t live without her, I know I lost her so long ago; I need her back I can’t go on; I feel it in my soul.

I am lost without her; I hear her cries from the Darkness; I feel it connects us, but I don’t know how to reach her.

I’ve look in every nook and cranny in my shadowy world, I have meditated till I can not anymore.

I scream and cry and run as fast as I can, yet still no progress to be at hand.

I need her; I know this deeply, yet I still can not find her.

Am I missing something what more can I do, I have called back to her but I fear there is nothing I can do.

It is there in the Darkness I fear my answer is there.

Can it be?

No, it can’t be.

Am I the one lost in the Darkness?

WWYHS

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Emerging From The Dark Night

Why do we continue to live

in so much fear?

Why is it that love feels too scary

for us to draw near to?

Why buy into the lies

and focus on the cost

instead of opening our hearts and souls

wide to love?

There is an ache I feel

deep inside

when the unreal dominates so much of our lives

When did we forget

to look for the joy?

To delight in the moment?

Open your eyes to this day

find a chink of light

even if its dark

draw comfort from something warm inside of you

that lights a fire of encouragement

from dying embers.

Do not stay all alone inside

listening to sad songs

life can be so much better

than this

love is so close by

only waiting for us

to recognise it

all of nature is breathing it

bearing witness to it

open your eyes

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As simple as speaking to Spirit

One thing I can say for the past year, is that I have found it super simple to stay in touch with the spirit realm. AKA Home!

It is strange to say out loud to others how I hear from spirit that this or that is going to happen.

And things happen. I get some sideways glances and those nervous little laughs. I really don’t mind, but it has me feeling alone in this world.

The funny thing to me is I hear spirit more when I am vacuuming or doing something. I asked Spirit why, spirit told me it was because I get out of my mind and can hear them easier. As they explained (and yes, there is more than one) but I pretty much only hear a female voice.

No, I do not have any mental disorders that I know of.

As Spirit has told me, we can communicate with them anytime we want. And no, they do not vibrate at a higher level, which is supposed to make it harder for them to communicate with us. They are always talking to us. They use many ways to reach out to us. It is the lowly human that has a hard time getting out of their limited teaching and thinking. Only the human vibrated at a low energy.

Life here on this Earth plane is far from fair, nor does it give us all that we desire. Life is about making mistakes, taking risks and finding that inner peace, with all that is happening around us. NOT AN EASY FEAT!

There is no one golden rule, there are many ways we came to live this lifetime, I have yet to find out why we have to suffer so much. I have asked, and the answer is, because you wanted to experience everything.

Now I have a hard time thinking I planned to come down here, acquired a disease and live with all the limitations that come with it. But I will have to check up on that once I get back home.

The teaching of this world makes it hard for us to find that inner voice that is there to guide us. There is not one book out there that tells us, we are the most powerful being in this world. That there is not one ruler out there that we must obey! There is no manual that tells us it is okay to have a quiet conversation in our head, that those emotions we have are our internal compass and that we are all connected to one source. NOT one and I have LOOKED!!

As spirit has shown me through my trails and tribulations, I am the only one who can improve my life, that may take a different thought or losing a negative learned thought! Life is not commanded by a being who judges you on how well you do rules and regulations. Sorry to burst the bubble, but you are the only one who holds yourself accountable to stupid things. And yes, they are stupid when you examine the rules you follow closer and with an open mind.

My sister-in-law has cancer, she has fought hard and long to get over the medical damage she has undergone. The only reason this poor lady has lasted as long as she has, is her will to survive. She has survived all the medical intervention, finding out that they were hurting her more than helping her. Most of us learn this the hard way as well.

One day she was talking about how God was angry at her. He had helped her through one bout of cancer to only smite here when it came back. I asked spirit why would a all knowing all loving god be so ugly to bless then take away that blessing? Spirit said there is no such law and to feel in my heart that my sister-in-law was under a limited thought about where she came from. They taught her to fear, and that if she somehow displeased her god, he would punish her.

Sprit has shown me that even in the ugliest times of this world, it is man who allows himself to be harassed, frightened and manipulated into doing things that make him sad, depressed and angry.

I have fallen into these fearful times; I have wished to leave this earth for I was so scared of the rumors and the harassment that I seen playing out on MSM (Main stream media) and SM (Social Media). If I stopped watching the TV news or The F.U. BOOK, I fell better instantly and I stop panicking.

How awful are those who are on a power trip and want to control those who they look down upon? Those men and women who we voted in to work for the betterment of our world for us. See, we are the ones to blame for the unlawful and ugliness. We the people have given our rights away and allow the ugly and hateful to run our country under the guise that we need to be ruled. Most who are in power are mentally ill, I feel, and do not know who they truly are. The blind leading the blind.

I have walked through that valley of shadows, those who are mindlessly manipulated and are only allowed to speak when spoken to or to follow the herd of lost souls.

It is a coming time, one of big changes, and there will be those who will make it and there will be those who won’t. It is up to the individual to walk the path that they feel most comfortable with. It is up to them to open themselves up to their truth.

I asked Spirit the other day what will happen now as I see people turning on brother, sister, mother, father, family, and friends? Spirit told me it will become worse, that it will only affect those who need it. That there are those of us who came to witness and be here in these changing times.

Spirit told me to watch and listen, to be here but do not absorb. To watch where I get my information from and to trust nothing from outside myself. That many wonderful changes are happening and all will work out for the best, but there will be losses, and those will be because that was their choice.

Life moves in and out like the ocean, it moves and flows like a river; it is gentle and hard like the wind. I came here to be tested, to find my way to a peaceful, loving place no matter what may happen around me. It gave me the emotions to find all I need to heal, love, live and become. Spirit is always talking, showing and helping me make the best decisions. I only have to get out of the outside world and focus on what is in my heart.

This post will find the right people who need to hear this message, and some will find this post unsettling. Spirit would say, stop, feel the words, and then decide on what your heart is telling you…

WWYHS