The Winds of Change

Every day there is a new day to create!  There is nothing you can not create in your life.  Yet when you do not love and respect yourself, there is no way you will be able to create on purpose.  You are a creator, but you have been taught that you must belong to a group or mass of people to be heard and seen.  THIS IS NOT TRUE!!

I have written that I have gotten rid of FB and Twitter.  NO more do I belong to the occult of negative thinkers.  What is sad is that most people follow blindly along without asking WHY.  Why are we being grounded to our homes, Why are they making us do things that go against our Protect Constitutional rights, why does your mask not work if I don’t wear one, why does a vaccine not work if everyone is not forced to have one?  These are just a few of the questions EVERYONE SHOULD BE ASKING!!

Here is some excellent advice from a two-year-old.  SAY NO!! NO, I will not be a part of the mass of stupidity! NO, I will not be silenced because of fake NEWS, fake SCIENCE, false FEAR!  You must prove to me that your idea of a mask that your vaccine work and you’re not in for the monetary movement!

When you force free people to do what you want, you become an ENEMY of the Country! Our Governor is An Enemy of the STATE!  He should be removed immediately.

Here is where I may piss some people off.  I am so angry at our President.  He goes around, talking out of both sides of his mouth!  No, where does he stand for the freedom of the people!! He is so wishy-washy.

He does nothing to protect the America that he claims he loves.  As he tweets his stupidity about a senile old man who couldn’t find his way out of a wet paper bag, he allows these enemies of the states and country to cripple our USA!!


He has the power to remove all these governors and mayors.  The people are asking for you, MR, PRESIDENT to DO YOUR JOB!!

When our governors and mayor allow others to destroy and use the people given powers against the very people who voted them in, it is time to remove those who we the people voted in!! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU MR, PRESIDENT AND THE PEOPLE OF AMERICA!??

It is time to stand up and take back our great country.  Where are the men of this world?  Our Forefathers and mothers fought for our right to chose to be free!  WHY THE HELL ARE YOU PISSING IT AWAY?????

I am so disappointed in the people of America.  Why are you silent? Why are you allowing them to shut you down, to mask you, to make you fear germs!!???

It is time for the Winds of Change!! It is time to stop cowering, wearing masks, walking with your tails between your legs.  The MASK is just the beginning, next is the dollar, then your guns, then you live where they say.  You are being readied for SLAUGHTER!!

GET YOUR FAT HEAD OUT OF THE TV!!!!! Stand up tall and walk with a big stick, it is time to fight for your GOD-GIVEN RIGHTS!!! It is time to tell family, friends, and Foe that this is enough horse shit!  It is time to fight for our children and our grandchildren!

The Winds of change are today!  It is time to call up stores that require masks and tell them that you will not be shopping there, it is time to stand up to the churches and ministers and tell them, we will sing without a mask!! It is time to stop being babies and start to grow the hell up!!  Stop BEING VICTIMS!! SAY NO!!!!!

It is time to tell our President to DO HIS JOB!!  If he wants my vote, he better start acting like the Man he says he is!!  Bring in the military and take down the Enemies of our States and Country!! Fire Fauci the FAKE!! Arrest KILL Bill GATES!! It is time to take out the trash!  DEFUND THE MEDIA!!  I will walk with you #PresidentTrump if you show me that you genuinely love freedom and what America stands for!!

You can be a victim, or you can be a leader and start your own revolution!  Fight for your GOD-GIVEN rights!! It is the only way you will ever see, taste, and have the freedom you once had!  ACT NOW!!!

The featured picture is awesome but I do not know who to give credit to. 😦


The End??

Valerie: It is strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years, I had roses and apologized to nobody. I shall die here. Every inch of me shall perish… Except one. An inch. It is small and fragile, and it’s the only thing in the world that’s worth having. We must never lose it or sell it or give it away. We must never let them take it from us. I don’t know who you are, but I hope you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and things get better and that one day people have roses again. I don’t know who you are, but I love you. I love you. (V for Vendetta)

LIFE has come to the end of times, all those who stood on the street corners with their signs were right.  The end has come!  The prophets of this time are all doom and gloom, the Spirit has told them that this is the end of times.

NOW… HOLD ON ONE BIG FLAT EARTH MOMENT!!  WTH ( why the hell) would Spirit tell one that the world is ending and not tell you how to do something about it??  REALLY, Just for one moment, let us think about this.

As I do speak to Spirit and those of us who love our Lord and Lady of the Heavenly realm, also hear the words.  I, for one, know for a fact that where I put my energy of thought is precisely what I will create in my OWN life!  No one else will be under contract to feel, live, and learn what I am to learn, live, and think UNLESS one chooses to go the same way!!  RE-READ that paragraph, please!

If I want to destroy the world with a negative thought, it will only affect me. I am not of the world; I am an individual living among others in this world.  I have freedom of choice!  I can choose to be a part of something going on around me, or I can choose not to be part of that which is going on around me.

I am not about to become one of the sheeple!! I walk in my own light from my heavenly family, and I will not succumb to the stupid of the world.  Will I pray for you, send you loving light and healing energies, but of course.  I am from a loving place, so that is my normal.  To hate others for their differences is truly a SIN!!!

Life is about listening and talking.  To discuss the differences we have but not make anyone do what we want.  It is not up to us to rule the world but to flow with it.

I watch as many are so doubtful in who they are, that they will kill and hurt others, so they can feel justified in their beliefs.  It is hard for many to walk their own views.  WHY?

Why is it so hard to enjoy being the individual that you are while allowing others to be who they want to be?  You have no right to make others be like you, again this is a SIN!!  How dare you take away the rights of others!   No, I do not condone killing, burning, extortion, and mayhem.  But I do believe we must allow others to make their own mistakes.  But hear this… most of those who are under the belief that what is happening in the world at this time is all true is truly being dupped.  Some will not educate themselves, and those who have been taught by a corrupt system that they do not have to take responsibility for their own inactions and actions!

The world is a place of responsibilities as well as possibilities. It is up to each individual to educate themselves.

“The time has come to realize that supersensible knowledge has now to arise from the materialistic grave.”
― Rudolf Steiner

We are much more than a herd of non-thinkers.  Forcing unjustified laws that were never voted on by the people to become laws that will have dire consequences.  It is time to step away from the MAINSTREAM MEDIA, to disconnect from the fear porn and propaganda of those who are under the sick mental thought that they somehow are above our Heavenly Lord and Lady! It is time to put the fear of a Loving all-knowing Spirit back in the world.  How do we not succumb to the fear porn we are being inundated with?  Start believing in the Spirit of the individual, stop following those who are in a delusional state of mind.  Help wake those who you are around with kindness and Love, show them the way, be the light!!

You are not part of that which you choose not to be a part of.  If it is not personally affecting you, walk away, do not be a part of it.  Keep your thoughts on want you want not on what you do not want!! Turn off the programs that are stressing you, go outside, listen to the kids play, sing a song, watch the birds, plant a garden, read a book, disconnect from the mind control.  Believe in yourself, and BE THE CHANGE!!

So the next time you see the doom and gloom group, realize that they are what they want to create, and they may very well get what they are putting their energy towards. But it will only affect you if you’re going to be a part of it.  Listen to Spirit, they will help you move away or stay away from that which you choose. Pray for those who do not want to know better, for they do not know what they do. I think… who knows…

“The sun with loving light makes bright for me each day, the soul with spirit power gives strength unto my limbs. In sunlight shining clear, I revere, Oh God, the strength of humankind, which thou has planted in my soul, that I may with all my might, may love to work and learn. From thee stream light and strength to thee rise love and thanks.”
― Rudolf Steiner

Until later, you beautiful star people, Love, and light!


A new World of thought

V: Would you… dance with me?
Evey: Now? On the eve of your revolution?
V: A revolution without dancing is a revolution not worth having!
What have I learned about this Corona Hoax?
That there is much more here than meets the eye.  This is not black and white but a rainbow of colors of deception.  There is no BLM, There is no BLM, There is no MLM, there is only one word for What Matters.  ALL!!  All is a tiny word but a tremendous meaning behind it. Ever took the time to look up the word “All”?
(used to refer to the whole quantity or extent of a particular group or thing.)
As I was watering the gardens today, I got to thinking about all that I am grateful for in this time of transition. Yes, this is a time of change, and this change is going to be a good one.  For too long, all I saw was those who loved to be lead from one drama to the next.  I still see the sheeple with their mask on as they walk around in a daze of despair.
The eyes are the windows of the soul.
I have a gift of seeing people’s souls/spirit.
I see confusion, sadness, and fear.  There is very few that smile with their eyes while being a victim to their own circumstances.  In fact, they look off or down at the ground as if they have been beaten into submission.  I do think they know that it is not natural to be masked, but because of the fear and the teachings, that they do not matter, those who chose the mask show their defeat in who they are as an individual.
I was walking through the hobby lobby the other day, as I caught the scents of fall and daydreamed of all the stuff this store has.  I caught sight of an elderly lady who was gasping for air with her cloth mask on.  She quickly took it off and gasp for air like she had just come up out of a deep dive.  I wanted to say something to her. But I knew better.  Some will fight for their very own death.  So I prayed for her and walk away.
I being a Holistic Health Practitioner, can not understand why people can not understand that without air, YOU DIE!!  You can live quite a while with no food or water, but without air, it is instant death!  You need to breathe in the clean, fresh air, not keep breathing in the old germed filled air.  That is why there are trees, grasses, weeds, they give us the air we give them our old air.  We are one with this earth!! Of course, I put this in easy to understand words.
Life is about the freedom to chose to live and love the conflicts and diversity of the world.   We are here to learn and grow, share with others, and to live our own individual lives.  Too often, we think we have to live for others to share their views even if we do not agree, as well as do not cause discomfort to others.   In other words, conform to others so as not to create a conflict!  WHY??
No leaders cause us to go around in a circle of nowhere.  I am not one to follow those who would like to jump off the cliff of fear porn.  I would rather walk off into the sunset and create another perfect day.
I am grateful for this corona hoax in some ways.  This Hoax has shown me that there are quite a few people who would rather be lead then lead.  Some like to be controlled and will kill others to have that “said control.” I have preached how disgusting our government is.  I have and have taught about how nasty our MSM is.  And that the number one killer of people is our medical community and big pharma.
As I watered my garden this morning, I was grateful for being awake and not watching the fear porn, or listening to those who preach about being a republican or Dumbacrate.  I am not a part of the group, I am about choosing those who will fight for the individual and not for the group.  This is not about being famous.  This is about being a caring human being.   This is not about Republicans and democrats.
It is about FREEDOM  and TYRANNY.
I posted these very words on Parler, and this guy lost his shit about how dumb could one be if you do not decide to follow the Republican side.  I say to him.  I am so sorry you are so deep in the non-individual and fear porn, that if all do not follow your foolishness, you amount to nothing.  Maybe a quiet day in nature will help you and your miss direction in what really matters.  Just saying…
I am grateful for being of a free mind to chose to live the way I want, and I will not follow those who I do not believe in, nor those who do not have the best interest of the people in mind.  Want to have me support you?  Then show me your heart!
Those who would rather have all controlled under one dictatorship are genuinely blind.  I am not blind, nor do I follow the crowd.  I love to dance my way around this world and all that it has to offer.  I wake up with one thought, and that is to be the best me I can be.
“You will not be good teachers if you focus only on what you do and not upon who you are.”
― Rudolf Steiner
With love and awakening,

The Creation that is you

A building is a symbol, as is the act of destroying it. Symbols are given power by people. Alone, a symbol is meaningless, but with enough people, blowing up a building can change the world.” V for Vendetta”

Wow, it’s been a minute since I last wrote.  Life has zoomed by at a fantastic pace.  Not long ago, we were all in a planademic.  Well, now, we still are, are we not?

As the fake of this Hoax comes to light, we still see those who are destroying towns, businesses, and statues.  As the disgruntled has their baby tantrum. The MSM reports on more fear porn.  I have loved all the memes on the horse racers as they describe what next fear horse comes into the lead.  How funny is it that so many actually want this Hoax to be real.  WHY?  Ahh, the question of the day!

I have written about this before.  The limited place we come from makes up the reality we live.  There is no other way around it.  There is no savior out there that will come into your life and save you.  There is only YOU!!  Others will share in your thoughts, but this is solely for your growth, not for you to stay and camp at.  We do need one another, but if we allow ourselves to stay in one place, one will grow mold.  Life is about changes, moving, and doing.

I sat outside, watering my wild grass that grows in my yard yesterday evening.  This has become my favorite thing to do.  To relax, listen, and water.  It is my way of meditating and putting things into perspective. I always talk to Spirit, but this time of day, I am really asking the questions of the day.

One thing Spirit said last night was that there will be hard times always, but to remember this time, right at that moment.  I felt peaceful and appreciative of all I was seeing, and all I was feeling.  That there is what I have found causes me the biggest hang-up in life—the fear of feeling.  I have been angry these past couple of days. I have even wanted to see those who have hurt me to be destroyed. There is nothing wrong with these thoughts or feelings.  In fact, it is okay to allow yourself to feel these emotions.  That is what we came down here to do.  As Spirit put it, you came here to deal and explore all that you do.  It is when you suppress and make yourself feel guilty for these thoughts and feelings that you get into trouble.

As I watch the world go to pieces and some people tear down the world, I can only wonder… what if they were told that they are allowed to feel the way they do, but tearing stuff down is not helping to heal them.  Too many times, we get it in our minds, be it from the fear that we have lived with for years, or the side effects of alcohol, or antidepressants, that life is too hard or not fair.

The more research about school shootings, the more I have seen that most of the shooters were on some kind of anti-anxiety medication. Don’t believe me look it up.  Our world is full of fear porn deliver every morning, afternoon, and evening.  The very source you get your information is causing you your fear.   Yet, only a few see this. Why?

I have found out from Spirt that you get what you give, that you create your day.  If you want the best day ever, you have to allow yourself to create and have that best day ever.  There is nothing outside of you that keeps you from creating.  Yet as I have written before, it is easy for outside sources to keep some in a state of limited thinking.

NO!  I do not believe that we have to stay in that limited thought, but it seems like to much work to get out of it for some.  I guess as I am witnessing it, it is easier for some to give up there God/ Goddess given gift of creating and allow others to control them.  As I watch many who are hurting and destroying this world, I worry about what kind of world we will have.

I am of this mindset.  I love my freedom to chose to be so free that I am not worried about how others are acting out.  I have removed myself from those people and situations.  There is no reason for me to follow the cows over the cliff.  I will stand tall and proud of who I am and watch as others fall and hopefully pick themselves up.  I do not need a leader, I walk best alone.  I love my emotions, and I love how I feel.

This world needs this time right now.  A lot of unhappy people need to awaken and become the individual that doesn’t need a crowd to be whole.

As Spirit put it so well last night to me.  I will have my good days and my bad days.  There are to be painful times, and there will be amazing times.  I am to remember that at those times when I am tested that I will come out the other side much more aware of how beautiful this life is.  It is why I came here to this earth plane. I came here to feel.

“Just as in the body, eye and ear develop as organs of perception, as senses for bodily processes, so does a man develop in himself soul and spiritual organs of perception through which the soul and spiritual worlds are opened to him. For those who do not have such higher senses, these worlds are dark and silent, just as the bodily world is dark and silent for a being without eyes and ears.”
― Rudolf Steiner, Theosophy: An Introduction to the Spiritual Processes in Human Life and in the Cosmos


Into the unknown for me…. Those can be some scary words. Well it could be, but I am all about running into the unknown. I have been talking to Spirit, some wild and crazy news is coming out. What will happen will change people forever, and there will be a lot of folks who will have a very hard time with it.

Life as we knew it will be very different, and no that is not a bad thing, but to some, it will feel that way.

Those who have gotten stuck in the ruts of life and look to a savior to save them will not be happy about what is to come of this time in our lives. There lies the problems, most have no idea that they are their own saviors. It saddens me that about 10 years ago I thought the same way. Pray for a savior to come and save thy! NOPE, that is not how that works. We save ourselves. God/Goddess gives us the tools to make the world the way we want. They give us the tools and fortitude to do what we want. It is up to our very self to do what needs to be done.  If you want to be saved you better start to listen inwardly!  The only person who is going to save you, is you! Is that such a bad thing?

It is hard for some to realize you came here to learn about diversity, conflict and no you are not owed a damn thing.  Your work is in what you put into yourself.  If you sit and wait then you sit and wait.  It all comes down to this.  YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE!!

Life is about contact with the unknown, as I have found out there is more strength in me then I gave myself credit. 

I woke up this morning from a dream of new love, new beginnings, of like minded love.  There is more out there than we could ever want or need, it is up to the individual to take action and seek it out.  If you feel repressed, it is because you are creating that repression. If you feel like you are in a dead-end life, you are creating that dead-end life.  It is very simple, and yet hard for many to let go of the thought that there is an outside force that will come save you. 


We have been taught that all there is in life is circumstances. Nope, again you have been lied to.  There is way more going on in your life than the mere getting up, eating, and going to work, rinse and repeat.  But it is up to you to see and seek out the more that there is out there.  Again YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE.  If you only give a little you get a little.  If you only want for just what you have you only get what you have.  It is very simple.  Yet, you have to take responsibility for your actions! Now, that is the hard part!!

Not many want to take the responsibility of being their own God/Goddess.  Yet, That is who you are.  You are so much bigger than you were taught! 

In a blink of and eye many would see what is happening in our world as a catastrophe.  Yet, for the awake it is a sign of change that has been needed for a very long time!!


You are a part of a great history to come about.  Life will change and it has too.  It will be a good thing for some and others it will seem like they awoke in a perpetual nightmare.  It is up to us who are awake to help guide those who are still sleepwalking. That doesn’t mean that you fight with them, but that you stand back and encourage.  There will be those who will fight for their limited beliefs.  Leave them to their limitations.  It means they are not ready for their awakening. 

As I wrote Yesterday, the individual is being born and it can be a hard birth. Allow those around you the time they need, BUT, Do NOT let them suck you back into a limited belief.  If you have to walk away from them than do so.  You must protect, honor, respect and love yourself at all times! 

In this time of change there will be rebellion there will be discord, there will even be destruction.  It is a good thing.  Even the tiny seed causes destruction to live.  It grows in the dark and then punches a hole in the earth, to find light, to breath, to be free to grow.

All living matter has its pain from growth.  Our world of people is growing from the repression that was pressed upon it.  

 The best way to fight tyranny is resistance!  Our own forefathers told us that! It is not about begging for our freedom or waiting until we are allowed to live life.  No man will get very far on his knees!! It is time to stand up and and take account of our own actions.

“What country before ever existed a century and half without a rebellion? And what country can preserve it’s liberties if their rulers are not warned from time to time that their people preserve the spirit of resistance? Let them take arms. The remedy is to set them right as to facts, pardon, and pacify them.” Quote from The Tree of Liberty

You must continue to grow, to create and help out our earthly time.  It is up to those who are awake to keep giving the strength our world needs.  Be around like-minded folks, and remember, YOU GET WHAT YOU GIVE!! Keep growing!

 “People should not be afraid of their governments. Governments should be afraid of their people.” V for Vendetta


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The extinction of the individual

My thought for the day.  As I keep an eye on what is going on around me, I notice one very prominent component in what is being played out.  There are no individuals anymore.  There are only masses.  Those who do try and be themselves are beaten and tortured until they succumb to the rights or the lefts of the world.

It reminds me of the KitKat bar commercial. Did they foretell that we would have this kind of subdivision??? If you are not for the left, then you will be removed and visa versa.  WHY?

Where has that rare and magnificent beast the individual gone?  Have we been so dummied down that we know not where we indeed come from?  I have for years preached that I am a spiritual being having an incredible journey as a human.  I feel as if I am all alone in this world that I live in.   If you are not of a group, be it of color, religion, working man/woman, political, vaccinated, or any other number of ways of being a mass, then you are frowned upon. WHY??

What happens to the individual dreams, cares, wants, and being? What happened to being of ones self, dream, achieving, and loving amongst the others in your life?  As I see it, there are not may such people out there like me.  Or there are so few that they like me have had to find a place of solitary existence.

What makes me sad is that as a spirit, I came here to live in a culture of differences, to experience the triggers of what others do and say.  But not lose myself in their behaviors or thoughts.  I came here to live in a free world where any dream and any desire was yours to try and do.  Yet the masses have given up their rights to these beautiful gifts and became lazy!  Those who would rather have everything given to them and not know how great it was to enjoy that time of living around others, watching them obtain their dreams, are genuinely lost!

Those who have lost their individuality follow the crowds and do things without a thought in their mind.  Some do as they are told, or there are the ones who tried to be themselves and got tired of the fight.  It is easy to follow the crowd to do what you are told. I guess? I could never stand to be told what to do.  I loved to be a free thinker and have discussions that made others uncomfortable.  I loved to be different!!

I come from an evil place, and I do believe that conforming to the masses is evil.  There is no room for individuality in a conforming world.  As I struggled to right, the wrongs did against me, I came out the other side very protective of myself.  I do not allow others to browbeat me into submission.  I stand in a place of hard love, and that love is my shield and sword.  I do draw lines in the sand, and I will fight for my individuality.  Not many do I see do the same.  Most start out strong, but when they fall weak, they allow the world to overcome them and fall back in line with the rest.   It takes dedication to oneself to reach a kind of nirvana of the true self.  Not many seem to be up to the task anymore.  I would say that is due to the drumming down of the spirit.  I was suppressed by my parents, school, medical, and religion.  In No way, were you meant to find the strength to stand tall and protect the individual!! That is a no-no in this age of the world.

Medicine and big pharma now control you.  The government is no longer ruled by the people; it has become cancer to the people.  There is no self; there are only the numbers in the masses.

I struggled with the wounds of the medical mafia and won by only a small margin.  I will have scares deeply embedded in my skin and soul.   There will never be another time they will get to do what they did to me.

As I watch the fear train that has been created in our society, I am saddened to see that there are very few who are of their own accord.  I do see those who are being prayed upon, paid, and feared to do terrible things to themselves and the rest of the world.  NO, where do I see the individual that is not beaten and taught to be submissive once more!  I know Social and mainstream media keeps us in a fear-based station in life.  The rare and magnificent individual is on the execution list!

I am becoming a very rare bred.  I will not go quietly into that night, but rise above and stand up to the masses of control.  I will not tire and give in to their fear.  I will stand up and be the spiritual being I am, and I will fight for my right to live as an INDIVIDUAL!! Who will find the courage to do the same?  Will you find that person that you lost so long ago, or will it be too late?

It starts at home, not with the masses! Take care of yourself and grow strong in your individuality!  Become that warrior and stand up to the tyranny of this world.  It is time to educate and acknowledge that there is a problem! Stand up, my fellow INDIVIDUALS!!

Beneath this mask, there is more than flesh Mr. Creedy. Beneath this mask, there is an idea. And ideas are bulletproof.  — V for Vendetta

“You will not be good teachers if you focus only on what you do and not upon who you are.”
― Rudolf Steiner


The boomerang effect

These days it feels like I am a boomerang; from hour to hour, there is so much information hitting me. I have no idea what to think or how to process it.  Life has a way of speeding up to warp speed.  Years can go by where not much happens, then in a blink of a moment, it seems like we hit a black hole and end up on the other side of a world we just didn’t know existed.

With all that is happening in the world at this time, I am finding myself diving deeper into my inner being.  I listen more to the inner voice that brings me feelings of peace in these conflicting times.  Oh, Do not get me wrong there are times I feel like I get sucked up into the tornados of emotions that wiz by from time to time.  It takes great effort at times to jump, dodge, roll, and twist out of the black, bleak emotions that come my way.  Some days I do pretty well others I get slammed to the ground and have to pick myself back up.

Some messages come my way that scare the living daylights out of me.  I have to crawl out of the anxiety-like a soldier coming out of a battlefield.  The thought of a dark presence that would love to see all die because of its nature to control. This is what bothers me.  There are those out there that only want to believe that this is the only life there is.  Some have disconnected from the very source that they came from.   How can one be so careless in their very existence to ever think that this is all there is??

As I speak more and more with Spirit I am reminded over and over that it is okay for me to feel the emotions of what I am reacting to.  But not to camp there, but to let these feelings flow like water.   It is easy to want to allow the monkey brain to take over and react to everything that is coming about. But why?  When I get back to that source where I came from, I can look from a spectators eyes, not from a belonging aspect. I do not need to belong to any group I am not of this world, I am but a visitor here to learn, to feel to share.  I am only here for a very brief moment.  It is hard for some to see this point of view.

Death is mourned, it is the end. But is it??  I do not believe in this theory; I never did.   I have always walked a different path.  I can look at the stars and feel longing and homesickness.

As Spirit has told me, there is so much more than what meets the eye.

The other day while walking in my yard, I found some beautiful barrel cactus blooming, we have had a drought this year, but the little rain we have had brought out some beautiful purple-pink flowers.  Even in the dried up weeds from the last year, life was still happening, and beautiful changes were happening under the death and decay.

There is life coming up from the ashes of this planademic, there are those awakening to more than the nine to five life that they had thought was life.  I am not of this world, but I am here to learn and to help it evolve.  I am not of the masses, but I am of one.  I am here to honor, respect, love, cherish, and take care of me first and foremost.  And as Spirit says, watch but do not absorb.

So as the world of emotions, and conflict wiz by, instead of being sucked up and boomeranged around, I chose to watch and see the evolutions happen.  Life has a way of surprising one who watches out of love!

“Some day, when I have grown sufficiently, I shall attain that which I am destined to attain,”
― Rudolf Steiner, How to Know Higher Worlds


Moments in life

“The tranquility of the moments set apart will also affect everyday existence. In his whole being, he will grow calmer; he will attain firm assurance in all his actions, and cease to be put out of countenance by all manner of incidents. By thus advancing, he will gradually become more and more his own guide and allow himself less and less to be led by circumstances and external influences. He will soon discover how great a source of strength is available to him in these moments, thus set apart. He will begin no longer to get angry at things which formerly annoyed him; countless things he formerly feared cease to alarm him. He acquires a new outlook on life.”
Rudolf Steiner, How to Know Higher Worlds

From the Ashes, there is a reborn. Like the magnificent phoenix, there will come a time it will burst into flames and emerge from the ashes brand new. It is time to open our eyes and the change that is happening. For some, it will be too much, and they will drown their emotions, their feelings in drugs, pharmaceuticals, and alcohol. Those who have hidden from their spirit their soul will suffer much.

Not a great prophecy is it? Spirit has a way of not sugar coating the lessons of this world. The lessons we all have come here to learn. There is an order in this disorder.

I am both appalled and awed by what I see in this year 2020. I am in disbelief in the reactions and non-reactions of the people of this time. Some seem to not want to see what is right in front of their faces. Of course, a lot of this has been driven into the belief system of all, and then some will not conform. It is easy for some to go along with the propaganda and others that will not allow such a thing to happen in their life.

We have all come from that place of conformity; our very parents tried to teach us what they learned, and if we did not do as told, we were made to listen. Is this not what we see at this time in 2020?

It is the spirit that helps us find our way through this challenging time. Do not mistake that as religion. No religion is right! Only your connection to spirit is the right way.

“It would be an error to wish to spread Christianity from a center in Asia, where other peoples are still settled, and Buddhism would be equally false for the European population. No religious view is right if it is not suited to the innermost needs of the time, and such a view will never be able to give a cultural impulse.”
Rudolf Steiner, Egyptian Myths And Mysteries

I am not against religion if it is meant to be a place to come together of liked minds but also require that each individual have his own thoughts. It is about awakening to your own love for the self and then sharing that love with all.

The powerful message that spirit has been teaching me in this 2020 year is that many do not have that individual relationship within themselves. It is as if they need others to do and say what they do and say, or they react negatively. It is not okay for most to walk around as their own identity without feeling vulnerable. Why have the masses been taught that individuality is not what we want and need??

I am learning that I do not need anyone to make me happy. I can make myself happy, and this is a good thing. We have others in our lives to help us be more joyful. If that other person doesn’t compliment your happiness, then you need to reexamine the way you are reacting towards others. The relationship with another is an 80/20 relationship. And that goes for all things in life. There is a no-one thing cures anything out there in this world. So all things in your life, be it religion, doctors, job, or just life in general, is an 80/20 relationship. Let’s take, for example, your job. Your job is not you, it is a compliment; it is that 20% that helps you be happier in your life. If your job is the 80% you will feel like something is missing in your life. The spirit of the soul the inner you is the most important job you can have.

Too many times, we get derailed and find ourselves tired, depressed, anxious, and angry because we have lost our way. When we find our way back to spirit, be it accidental or by our own workings, we find peace and happiness. There is a purpose that fills our hearts, and we once more have the energy to keep moving forward. Life takes on clarity, and we feel energized!

“There slumber in every human being faculties by means of which he can acquire for himself a knowledge of higher worlds. Mystics, Gnostics, Theosophists — all speak of a world of soul and spirit, which for them is just as real as the world we see with our physical eyes and touch with our physical hands.”
Rudolf Steiner, How to Know Higher Worlds

I know I am sharing a lot from Rudolph Steiner in this blog today, it is like a breath of fresh air to read his words, even though he wrote them in the 1900’s it seems like he wrote these very words for this time and place in 2020.

I have all but gotten rid of the social media platforms, I have found that they are full of fear. The scenes the messages all negative and worthless to me. As I look into the sources, they are shared by those who are under the misguidance of comradery. They share all their fears and insecurities, and yes even I, was guilty of sharing their negative propaganda!! It made me feel lonely and depressed, it disconnected me from my heart and from spirit.

I finally allowed myself to let go of the fearporn and asked my spirit why this is happening. The reply: this is not for you, look at where you are, you are not in this you are not of this. Those who are reacting to this are meant to, they need to do this to help them awaken. I was directed to watch, but do not absorb it! I am to stand back and witness a mass awakening of those who have self-medicated to the point that they have disconnected from their very spirit. This time and what is happening is how they will get the very things they have prayed for. Awakening!

It is time for those who are the sleepwalkers to come back to the truth of who and what they are and why they are here. As spirit told me, I am in a safe place and protected, I see a story unfold. I react as I would when reading a wonderful book. It is not my story, for I have awakened to the other worlds of life, but I get to witness others find their way. How wonderful to see such a wonderous time in my life!!

“All knowledge pursued merely for the enrichment of personal learning, and the accumulation of personal treasure leads you away from the path, but all knowledge pursued growth to ripeness within the process of human ennoblement, and cosmic development brings you a step forward.”
Rudolf Steiner, How to Know Higher Worlds: A Modern Path of Initiation

Although this time in my life, the year 2020, can seem pretty overwhelming, it teaches me to go deeper into myself and find that love and honor that specialness that is me!

Life is truly remarkable if we remember to watch with an open heart and stay connected to the very breath of spirit! I would recommend that when you feel the fearporn that you sit outside or find a book and allow the world to do what the world has to do.


Little Spirit

Wouldn’t it be great if all the riot people would have a dance-off instead of burning down innocent stores or personal property?!

What a strange world I live in.  Where the masses have been taught by MSM to hate and to hurt.  Where is their HUMANITY!???

So repressed are we, filled with toxins and BS that the masses go outside and cause pain and misery but stayed inside because of a HOAX!  How sad!  I shake my head as I watch those who are lead by the mind and not the heart!  Where is your compassion, where is that soul connection? Where are you, little lost spirits??

Here where I live, we have a great migration of miller moths.  There are thousands of them.  It is not an ordinary event, so when it happens, it has a lot of meaning to me.  The Indians of this region called them little spirits.  They are quite beautiful, soft and have such beautiful patterns on their wings.   The dance in the full moonlight and come in to visit as they make their journey to where ever it is.

As I watch them, many will not make it to their destination.  I find the little spirits here and there, trapped in windows or in doorways.  It helps me to put my own life in perspective.  There are those of us who will not make it, in the sense that we will not learn the lessons we came here to learn.  It is a struggle but a glorious battle.

One night as I played a favorite online game with my son-in-law, I had one of these little spirits land on me.  This little guy had been bouncing off of the light near me and off the tv for most of the night.  I really didn’t pay much attention, they do not bother me, in fact, I have caught many and turned them loose.  As the night progressed, I can now reflect back to his struggles.  He or she seemed to give up and sit on the lampshade.  It crawled around here and there, casting shadows across my walls.  Then it flew down and landed on my hand while I was waiting for another game to load up.  I looked down at it in amazement. There is sat just looking at me.  It had nothing more to lose, this little spirit just sat there.  I gentle covered him in my other hand, but he didn’t fly around in my hands; it just sat there quietly.  I sat there and watched it as he watched me back.

How gentle and frail this little spirit was, and it was like he knew I would help him.  The trust made my heart feel large.  I got up and gently carried him to the back door. I lifted my hand up to let him be free, but he stayed there, still looking at me.  I gently blew on him, and he flew into the night.  How remarkable our world is when we are awake.

We are all spirit, and we all came here to learn how to live in a different life.  To grow in diversity, to engage in those things that make us pause and take in like a cold blast of air.  It is refreshing, exhilarating to live in such a time.  But I do warn you do not listen with the mind the ego, listen with the heart the spirit.  Do not take your struggles as a bad thing but a leaning to be experienced.  Do not conform to the norm but step out with exploration in your sites!  It is time for the masses to awaken to see to be connected, to be triggered, to be alive!
“He remembers that it was said to him, “Our ancestors were animal forms.” But he does not remember that these forms were gods. This is the psychological basis for the emergence of Darwinism.”
― Rudolf Steiner, Egyptian Myths And Mysteries


Be authentic

This is one of those days where I need to get some confusion out there, sometimes it helps to write it all out and then reread it to get a better understanding of a problem.

This really isn’t much of a problem, or is it?  I have now been called bias when it comes to my belief in this planademic.  I have no issues with that, it’s just that the one who has called me out, talks on both sides of his mouth.  One minute he is for the medical mafia the next moment he is all about naturopathic remedies.  I guess there really isn’t anything wrong with being on both sides, but then to preach to others how they should be reacting and behaving has me pissed off! <—- for lack of wanting to use better words.

While it is excellent that there is a wealth of information coming out, I am angry that there would be those who want to censor that information.  I see nothing wrong with both sides of this planademic coming out with their versions of what they believe is happening. There is no scientific data that can be produced from either side, so let the discussions come.  Even our own President hasn’t a clue where he stands on this issue! So why are so many so-called platforms removing or censoring thoughts from others?  I do see it as a way of hiding something that should be seen and discussed by the masses.

As the numbers come out, the world is seeing that the way this planademic was handled was not right in any way!  While there were some, who may have died due to complications brought on by the way this virus was medically treated.  I have yet to see that one person has died from this virus!  Where is the scientific data on that?!  NOT HEARSAY!!!! I want to see the real data from a third-party source, not from a bunch of paid fact-checkers!!

It is time to ask questions! LOTS OF QUESTIONS!  It is time to sit amongst your fellow beings and have discussions and listen to one another!  I am so sad to see people in the streets fighting and screaming at people in stores.  YOU HAVE NO ACTUAL PROOF OF WHAT YOU ARE SAYING AND FIGHTING OVER!!! STOP BEING STUPID!!!!

I see these world tearing it’s self apart because of a bunch of paid lies that come from a FAKE source!  It is time to gather together and talk about what we fear and what we can do to get over that fear! Stop the isolation and go out into the sun and talk to one another!  Listen from your heart, not your corrupted mind! Go to church and listen to one another, not just one man or woman in a robe!!  It is time to be a human population with feelings!  It is time to walk out of the shadows and into the light.  Listen to your heart!! Walk into that bathroom and look at yourself and love yourself.  You are smart and courageous. You can be thoughtful and kind to one another, but you have to start with yourself first!

I love that person who said I am biased, I love that he brought out in me, even more, resolve to protect, respect, love, and be my authentic self.  I do not fear the conflict, I do not have to be right.  I will have a voice and honor myself.  And I can do it with love!

“Whoever seeks higher knowledge must create it for himself. He must instill it into his soul. It cannot be done by study; it can only be done through life. Whoever, therefore, wishes to become a student of higher knowledge must assiduously cultivate this inner life of devotion. Everywhere in his environment and his experiences, he must seek motives of admiration and homage. If I meet a man and blame him for his shortcomings, I rob myself of power to attain higher knowledge; but if I try to enter lovingly into his merits, I gather such power. The student must continually be intent upon following this advice. The spiritually experienced know how much they owe to the circumstance that in the face of all things, they ever again turn to the good and withhold adverse judgment. But this must not remain an external rule of life; rather, it must take possession of our innermost soul.”
― Rudolf Steiner, How to Know Higher Worlds